America X Suicidal! Reader Bullet

America X Suicidal! Reader
Bullet

My legs are dangling off the edge
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm
Gone, gone, gone, gone
My legs are dangling off the edge
A stomach full of pills didn't work again
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm
Gone, gone, gone, gone


She sat there alone on the edge over looking New York. Next to her sat a can of alcohol, her antidepressant pills, and a gun. She hadn’t chosen how but she had options. There was no point anyways. The taste of her last cigarette still tainted her teeth. She stared at her scars, both the physical and mental ones.


Gone too far yea I'm gone again
It's gone on too long tell you how it ends
I'm sitting on the edge with my two best friends
One's a bottle of pills and one's a bottle of gin.


It’s not like anyone would miss her. The only person who would have missed her, passed away two year ago. ‘Why did you have to leave me uncle?’ She was completely alone. Nothing good ever happened no matter how well she behaved. No one even cares.


I'm twenty stories up, yea up at the top
I've polished off this bottle now it's pushin' me off
Asphalt to me has never looked so soft
I bet my momma found my letter now she's calling the cops


She took a swig of her beer. She looked down at her dangling legs. She laughed at herself. She had always been afraid of heights, but now the height was comforting. She took two more pills and washed them down with her beer. It was oddly refreshing. She finished off the last sip of her beer and tossed the can down. She watched it as it fell. The can didn’t do much, so what would a fall do to her? She wondered if anyone found her goodbye letter yet. If they did, they probably didn’t care.


I've gotta take this opportunity before I miss it
'Cause now I hear the sirens and they're off in the distance
Believe me when I tell you that I've been persistent
'Cause I'm more scarred, more scarred then my wrist is
I've been trying too long with too dull of a knife
But tonight I made sure that I sharpened it twice
I never bought a suit before in my life
But when you go to meet God you know you wanna look nice


She was ready but not entirely. She wanted to linger in this moment. But she was ready for it to be over. She tugged at her dress. Like she already said ready but not entirely.


So if I survive then I'll see you tomorrow
Yea I'll see you tomorrow...
My legs are dangling off the edge
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm
Gone, gone, gone, gone
My legs are dangling off the edge
A stomach full of pills didn't work again
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm
Gone, gone, gone, gone


She was still trying to name anyone who would miss her but no name came to mind.’ I guess I really am alone’. Her (e/c) orbs stared into the sunset. ‘It’s so beautiful, unlike me. It disappears for a day, and the whole world misses it. If I were to disappear for a lifetime, no one would bat an eye.’


We hit the sky, there goes the light
No more sun why's it always night
When you can't sleep well you can't dream
When you can't dream well what's life mean?
We feel little pity but don't empathize
The old are getting older, watch a young man die
A mother and her son and someone you know
Smile at each other and realize you don't


She tried again to think of anyone who would care if she was gone. Still no one came to mind. ‘I guess I really don’t have any reason to live. My job sucks, my apartment sucks, I barely have enough to get by, I never even met my own father, and I’m completely alone. ‘My whole life is screwed up.’


You don't know what happened to that kid you raised
What happened to that father, who swore he'd stay
I didn't know 'cause you didn't say
Now momma feels guilt, yea momma feels pain
When you were young you never thought you'd die
Found that you could but too scared to try
Looked in the mirror and you said goodbye
Climbed to the roof to see you if could fly


Alfred looked up at the sky. It was always beautiful at this time. Then something caught his eye. Someone was on the roof of one of the buildings. He grabbed a pair of binoculars off of one the tourist stands. He looked up to see it was (y/n). ‘What is she doing up there?’


So if I survive then I'll see you tomorrow
Yea, I'll see you tomorrow...
My legs are dangling off the edge
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm
Gone, gone, gone, gone
My legs are dangling off the edge
A stomach full of pills didn't work again
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm
Gone, gone, gone, gone


She tried to think of any name of anyone who would miss her, but still no name came to mind. ‘I guess I really am alone.’ She slowly stood up, turned her back to the sunset and closed her eyes. She was about to let herself go. ‘After all, I have always wanted to fly.’


I wish that I could fly
Way up in the sky
Like a bird so high
Oh I might just try
I wish that I could fly
Way up in the sky
Like a bird so high
Oh I might just try, oh I might just try…


“(y/n)!!!!” she located the man who had called her, staring at him bewildered.
“Alfred?” Alfred stood in front of her, a look of absolute fear in his eyes, as his friend threatened her life.
“You don’t have to do this” he said shaking, still staring at his friend.
“Y-yes I do…” Tears stared to fill her eyes.
“No, no you don’t. Please come down from there” (y/n) stared at him then hesitantly got away from the edge. As soon as she was, she rushed into his arms, wiping her tears on her friend’s jacket. He froze for a second then started to caress her (h/c) hair in order to try and calm her, and stop her sobbing.
Alfred finally calmed down. “(y/n) don’t ever do something like that again. That is never the answer. Do you hear me?”
She nodded her head yes. “I’m sorry. T-thank you for s-saving me,” (y/n) managed to choke out through her sobs.
“Well, what kind of hero would I be if I didn’t dude?” Alfred was back to being himself.
(y/n) giggled at him, her tear stained cheeks starting to fill with color again. “Alfred, I love you,” she whispered.
“I love you too.” He said easily. (y/n) stared at him shocked.
“What, didn’t think I could love you?” She nodded.
Alfred picked up her chin gingerly so that they were eye to eye. “You are the most amazing and beautiful woman I have ever met. I don’t know what I would do with myself if you left me.” He leaned in and stole a kiss that (y/n) gladly returned
I was wrong. I do have a reason to live. His name is Alfred F. Jones.